The older Kyson gets, the further I fall from writing here. I guess I feel like I’m not really in the “NICU Scene” (if that’s what you would call it) any more. He’s small but doing wonderfully. He’s a 2 year old genius in 1 year old jeans. Perfect.But recently I’ve noticed that my numbers on facebook are steadily growing with several people still reading my posts every day. I’d like to think that even though I’ve moved on with things that I still help someone from time to time to cope with their fears. What we all really need in a time like this is support. Someone to talk to and tell us that it’s all going to be alright. That they can make it through this and live a somewhat normal life.
I forget sometimes that Kyson was ever so small. It feels like a lifetime ago. But I just wanted to say that I’m still here and I still care deeply about the littlest ones. I didn’t mean to neglect you guys. I just didn’t know you were still here. I will be stopping by more often, even if it is just to share a quote, a photo, or a story about our day. I needed you then and you got me through some tough days. Hopefully I can do the same.
Sooooooo. I got internet!! Yay. It took forever to get it out here. We had to call almost everyone in existence. Some said our road didn’t exist and others just blew us off because we live so far out. We ended up with HughesNet. It’s a little more expensive, but they come to the boondocks and it’s actually pretty speedy.
I’m aweful at keeping up with the blog. But hopefully if I’m not too lazy, I’ll be back for good this time. (Promises, promises)
Kyson’s birthday is in a week. He’s gonna be two! Can you believe it?? I’m having a hard time with it really. Like, I cry when I put him to sleep and stuff. It’s just sinking in that he’s not really a baby anymore. 😦 He LOVES tractors. So we are going to have a tractor party at my family’s farm. We’re gonna paint pumkins and have a hay ride on the tractor. I’m so excited. I will post pictures later this week.
Ta-ta for now.
I’m not really sure how many of you are into this sort of thing but here goes….
I just washed my hair with baking soda and vinegar. It’s called No ‘Poo and so far, I love it. Add that to my already growing list of green products and you’ll notice that these are inwardly green things-Things that not only help the environment, but more importantly reduce the toxins that come in contact with my family.
I’m one of those Chicken Little types. The sky is always falling. And there is always something out there trying to kill me or make me sick. But I never realized how much our skin takes in the things around us. How else would nicotine patches work?
Our skin is one great big organ. Starting with cloth diapers for Kyson, I then moved on to cloth pads… Which are AWESOME! I’ve noticed lighter, happier, less crampy periods ever since. Then I switched to natural deodorant and now shampoo. I remember going on my diet last year and how my shampoo/conditioner actually made me gain weight. It’s true!
The crazy thing is that my hair looks healthier and shiner after just one wash. It looks so good, my mom just made her own shampoo this morning!
I’m really excited about this change that I’m making. I’m hoping to reduce my family’s risk of cancer and other related diseases. I was wondering if you too might be up to the challenge. I’d love for my friends to try this with me or share other ways they’ve eliminated toxins in their lives. No judgement, no crunchier than thou attitude- just positive changes. I look forward to hearing from you!
Sometimes I wonder if I’m a wuss. Like, I talk about how hard things were for me (and don’t get me wrong they were) but were they really all that bad? I didn’t die. Though at one point I thought I was going to. And there were plenty of times I wondered about Kyson. But any time someone brings it to my attention I feel awkward. I’m neither a superhero nor a dainty flower. But I am terrified. There are worse things that could have happened and we were very fortunate, I know. It’s just that everything scares me.
I check him constantly to see if he is still breathing while he sleeps. I’ve just now got to the point where I feel comfortable letting him out of my grip to walk in the yard on his own. I chop his food into microscopic pieces and still freak out anytime he even makes an unfamiliar gesture while he’s eating it.
But he isn’t afraid of anything. He rides his four wheeler standing up. He’s not afraid of talking to people he doesn’t know. He climbed to the top of a slide at the playground Sunday with no help except Kyle running behind him and slid down a slide that’s as tall as I am.
But I guess that’s how I want him to be. That way I know he won’t be scared to do the things he wants to do. He’ll be as free spirited as I wish I was. He’ll probably break a few bones at some point. But he can be my little superman and he will succeed later in life… As long as I get the courage to let go.
I disappear for a month or so then I come back. It’s a cycle, you see. I’ve been dealing with a whole bunch of drama that I won’t really get into. But to sum it up: I don’t have clean running water and someone in my family had a mental breakdown and found out they are bipolar then sprained their ankle two weeks later. It’s been exhausting. And I’ve had to cloth diaper because of money this week and not because I like them. I am broke. Ahhhhhh!
But things are returning to normal. I moved my work table into the living room so I could spend more time with Kyson. It also helps that I can kinda watch tv while I’m cutting and pressing snaps (the worst part). I’ve doubled my speed too. I’m like, super sewer now. So I’m pretty happy about that. I’m actually going to be doing an event for my friend Michelle on her blog. That’s exciting. I’m just waiting to hear back about my Nykibaby license. I hope I get accepted the first time. I’ve been working really hard to perfect my skillz. My anniversary is Thursday. Woot!
So as usual excuses, excuses.
Right when I first started my blog and decided to help preemie mamas, I saw a friend on facebook talking to a girl in my town who had just had a preemie. I normally don’t add people I don’t know but for some reason, I felt like I should talk to her, so I messaged her. We started talking and now Tiffany and I are friends.
Her little Adreanna was born three months too soon and weighed 2 pounds 13 ounces. She is a very beautiful, happy baby and hardly ever cries. At first glance, you would never suspect anything was wrong. But 10 month old Adreanna is a very sick little girl. She has Necrotizing Enterocolitis, or NEC for short. NEC is a condition where the intestines become infected and can die. She has already had surgery to remove all but 21 centimeters of her bowels.
Due to her condition, Adreanna has an ostomy bag, a feeding tube, and a port that leads directly to a main vein in her heart for her to recieve nutrients. This also means Adreanna will need to have a pancreas, liver, and intestine transplant. In order for this to happen, they will have to stay in Nebraska for more than six months and need help for what is basically moving halfway across the country.
For my local friends: Adreanna’s family is hosting a benefit for her on March 10 at R&D Car Wash in Hartwell. They are selling hotdog plates for $5 and taking donations to help pay for their trip to Nebraska. Also a portion of the car wash sales from that day go to help Adreanna as well.
For my not so local readers: They are accepting donations as well. Message me for details. Any amount of help would be greatly appreciated and I thank you ahead of time for being generous to help this sweet little baby.
The stats helper monkeys at WordPress.com mulled over how this blog did in 2010, and here’s a high level summary of its overall blog health:
The Blog-Health-o-Meter™ reads Wow.
A Boeing 747-400 passenger jet can hold 416 passengers. This blog was viewed about 2,200 times in 2010. That’s about 5 full 747s.
In 2010, there were 92 new posts, growing the total archive of this blog to 99 posts. There were 155 pictures uploaded, taking up a total of 5mb. That’s about 3 pictures per week.
The busiest day of the year was November 18th with 108 views. The most popular post that day was It’s a Preemie Thing – Giveaway for Prematurity Awareness **CLOSED**.
Where did they come from?
The top referring sites in 2010 were facebook.com, networkedblogs.com, healthfitnesstherapy.com, themomblogs.com, and shareyourstory.org.
Some visitors came searching, mostly for preemie blog, for colored girls.com, +size 40o bra, fat 23 year old, and drano test.
Attractions in 2010
These are the posts and pages that got the most views in 2010.
It’s a Preemie Thing – Giveaway for Prematurity Awareness **CLOSED** November 2010
27 comments and 1 Like on WordPress.com,
Pregnancy Superstitions June 2010
About June 2010
You Know You’re A Preemie Parent When… June 2010
Kyson Aidan June 2010